Struggles and Learnings, Heaven and Hell

    Everyone can agree that the pandemic has changed or heavily affected people's lives, some positively, some negatively. It was a difficult time for most people. For students, having to study on their own. For people with work, a huge, abrupt change, so damaging they either lost their jobs, their mental, emotional and/or physical stability, or their sense to live. Life just happens sometimes. And we knew that. But were we prepared for this chaos? An obvious no.

    Where to even begin with how it affected me, especially in studying, was what I first thought when I received the news from our ICT teacher, in what to do in making our first post. There were so many things that happened, how do I even start? So I did my best to remember how it was from the beginning: late nights, writing and typing, answering modules I mostly don't understand, worsening eyesight, nightmares related to studying, breakdown, worsening grades... To sum it up, a particularly horrifying, traumatizing part of my life that I deeply and repeatedly wished had never happened. I'd rather go through a different traumatic incident that go through this. Every single day was a fight, and most of the time I was the losing end. To battle this, I prayed to God for help. I sought support and talked about my problems to my friends. I even managed to let go of an unhealthy coping mechanism of mine, which was to punch walls. My once withering life managed to grow in a different soil.

    Sometimes I wonder how I managed to pull out of this. I'm thankful to God for guiding me along the way, no matter how many times I stumbled. For my dear friends, for being there for me in my darkest days. And to the one I hold dear in my heart, for being so understanding and kind when I had faced problems. For giving me advice and comforting words, I couldn't be more thankful. These people matter the world to me, much more than they think, much more than I'd admit. My reasons to live and continue living. My Stars.

Date of Publication with the Picture: October 20, 2022

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Retrieved Date: October 20, 2022

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