An Eternal Flame

Children's Month. Since I was unaware of this month being Children's Month, this month was just another month to me. Knowing it changed things entirely. What is Children's Month? Everyone has their own perceptions or views of it. And so do I. But I have so many mixed emotions about it, considering the good times and bad ones I remember about Children's Month. Gaining new friends. Losing them. Having so much fun. Gaining trauma. A balance, one would say. I'd say it's simply chaotic. And honestly? Chaos is ever present in the world.

    I personally enjoy it, excluding the times I suffered due to it. There's different kinds of booths, activities, games and the like. I learn and experience new things thanks to these. Despite the loneliness and stress, I have moments where I was full of energy and happiness thanks to these celebrations. Despite being someone who doesn't smile quite often, thanks to these experiences, I get to smile and laugh. But as I have said earlier, there are still bad memories. They haunt me whenever I am not occupied with something. So I couldn't help but keep myself busy, keep myself from being alone with my thoughts. To think something that couldn't run could chase me is horrifying. No matter how many times I tried to escape, I couldn't. But these moments helped me learn, helped me grow, helped me nurture my skills. I wouldn't want to undo anything related to it. Because as much as certain memories hurt so bad, these celebrations mean so much to me. I wouldn't change it for anything else. It matters to me. It always has—much more than people realize.

    When I heard about this for the first time in elementary school, I was so happy. A celebration where we get to watch movies, have fun with friends and teachers, and wear comfortable civilian clothes. I'm glad these exist. We get to lay back and relax for a bit, including the teachers. I couldn't be more thankful for its existence, even though it's a flame to me. Helpful but also deadly.

Date of Publication: November 25, 2022; 8:31 am.

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Article name: PIA - National Children’s Month to focus on children’s mental health issues

Date Retrieved: November 25, 2022; 8:27 am.

    (https://pia.gov.ph/news/2022/11/02/national-childrens-month-to-focus-on-childrens-               mental-health-issues)